I don't know how to start this off, so I'm just going to dive in. Despite what I may say or think sometimes, I really love my (blood) family. There are times when I cannot stand my mother, but I really enjoy it when we are all together because then I don't see the crazy person that I am always around and more so the person that grew up with my uncles and my grandpa, and there are much more laughs and conversations. I also love learning about the history of my family. I feel it's fairly unique. I mean, I know there a lot of people out there with grandparents that met overseas due to World War II, but their's are just not as cool ; ) just kidding.
My grandpa is sort of religious, but not too religious. He believes in a lot of things though. He said something that was fairly neat the other day about fate and what not. About how he always had some fascination with New Mexico (he grew up on the East Coast). He made some random road trips out here with my grandma, then with two of my uncles at one point, and then finally made the decision to move out here. He met some important people and had a huge influence on Santa Fe architecture at the time. He designed a lot of buildings and homes in the Santa Fe area. Anyway, he always says that he does not know why he had this fascination with New Mexico, but he finds it interesting how out of his ten grandchildren, five were born in New Mexico, that one of his grandchildren (one that was not born here) was transfered here for airforce service, that my sister graduation from school here, that one of his children still live here, and I cannot remember the rest.
But yeah. I don't really like thinking about all of the "what if's" in this world. Like, "What if my grandpa never had the desire to come to New Mexico? What if my grandpa never took my grandma out for a blind date in the Netherlands? What if my grandpa never joined the airforce?" Blah blah. Or maybe the biggest one would be "What if I never moved to Los Alamos?" I feel like my life would be completely different. I know it would be. I would not have the people in my life I so dearly care for now. I wouldn't have the people I consider to be my family (friends and their families). I wouldn't have you.
So, baaaasically all I'm really getting to is that I am thankful for all the things I have been through, whether they be good things or tragedies. I may have gone through rough times, but I am here now and probably the most content I have been in a while. I might have to deal with some things down the road, but for right now...I can breathe comfortably.
I feel like I should read over this for mistakes and such but I'm not going to...I think that's all that is going to come out of me right now about this. poop.
The world's caving in, I got tickets for two
They're not the best seats and they're not the best view
Take my hand, you can squeeze on my arm
